I was her junior high school students, junior high school is to open in early ages love beans! She is no exception.
I classes in her class next door, coincidentally, two of them actually are representative of several disciplines. Every night, after going to night classes, they have handed the job on the old quarters to go. So the two of them occasionally meet, at first she did not care, but occasionally make a call; later she found them more and more time to send a unified operation, but they still shallow to say hello. But her heart was no security every day, she said it was not clear what it feels like and would like to see that he was afraid to see him, often sitting in a classroom daze; he also occasionally appeared at her window a few Next, sometimes also hit his eyes, he passed the time. She found herself on I really like, but none of them have said, or as usual, to the exam, they are busy reading.
Tension in the test passed. She is waiting for acceptance letter soon.
But like the first letter I had written her a letter she had received 第一封情书!
She really gave scared silly, like an electric shock, numbness, and she held her breath, almost lost consciousness, picked up the letter ran upstairs. Letter Opener hands are shaking, and I feel very excited, looking at the letter, she did not know how to pack their own feelings, she really too excited, really did not think he also has a crush on her, and she thought she was an only person’s unrequited love. But little regret, the letter I said that he walked to the high school, and she has learned to be a provincial colleges admitted! But she was happy, she gave I a letter back saying that subtle, she had to admit that she did not pretend to like him before, but as he walked to the high school and encouraging, Come!
She sent the letter, he immediately gave her a letter back, we join in a town, you can always let the post office messenger. In this way, correspondences, approaching his high school, she was so happy and frightened, because as long as he came to school, she will be able to see him, her home is not far from the school gate one hundred meters. School, he from time to time to look at her home shop, what to buy something, tell her the two. They are very conservative, not by adults found.
Before long, she also went to the provincial secondary school. They have maintained a correspondence.
Into the secondary school, she felt better adapt, communicate with others, she is in the middle with the native dialect, and here to use Mandarin, she suddenly could not adapt over, she became very quiet, and she was afraid wrong people will joke, lonely one, the only happy that I received a letter, and then replied, music is not he. He always called her in the letter, “English,” “dear” At that time she felt good nauseating ah.
First semester winter break, they finally met, we walked back a long country road middle school, sit and chat in the camellia garden, the first kiss her, that she shyly ducked. Her mother went without telling his radio room to play, it can not be particularly happy, just wanted to see him, but saw him, do not know what to say, she became more and more not express.
How time flies, have to go to school.
At school, she was always a hindsight who set several school meetings, but she was still a man sitting in class, and then ran down the sixth floor, the principal has already began to speak, she had to return to the classroom.
In class, she is often distracted, she always expected her I on her side, she really want to see him, I always imagined that he suddenly appeared in front of her class, there are a lot of words to say to him. He always said in the letter, he wants refueling, the entrance to his success, his big pressure …… she gradually afraid pressure on him, and the letter does not say something like that kind of thing he.
At school she also has a lot of distress, she really want to tell him, but was worried affect his learning! She really listen to him, and she refrained, do not give him too much trouble, the letter also less, but her heart was more closed.
Two and a half passed quickly, she went to Shenzhen to work, they are becoming increasingly less, he also facing the entrance, and they less contact, and she told him many, many wanted to say, seems to have been unable to speak the.
She felt tired, the distance of space it is too far, too long will be numb thoughts, forgotten, apart for too long will be tired, but he still said: Let time and space to prove our love …… he believed their Love never shattered.
But she really tired ah, she also has pressure, family economic pressures, her tuition basically from far relatives in Shanghai sent her, now my sister to college, my brother also increased, whereas her father has not worked.
I can not give her in order to add trouble, she refrained anything, do not tell him.
Finally wait until he went to college, he successfully admitted Li Teachers College. She finally made a break with his mind to.
She received a letter from him, one, two … She did not dare look back I did not re-open, and he did not re-letter.
A year later, she switched to another company, see others in pairs, good envy. Especially her cousin, they both the same age, her old boyfriend is her big dragon, good move with two people, good fun. I’ll have to find she wanted the dragon. Later, for a job, she also seems to love talking like a few friends, but she is not like that type, do not feel the age grows louder, and parents anxious, hurried to marry her, but she Who’s heart still not been opened.
She felt her heart was not open. Later I graduated, she did not know how we are contacted, and only know that he came to Guangdong relatives, finding a job, re-see him, did not know that she had told him what to say, they could not open a closed heart. But she promised him to start again, and yet afraid of something, afraid of their own without his imagination so virtuous, so perfect, yes, it is so afraid of, he is unable to open her mood.
She had learned that he was already in college about a girlfriend, is that the girls chasing him. I asked her how she do? He said not to worry, he would go to solve.
Maybe he wrote a letter to his girlfriend, maybe called communication, he said, and love marriage, everyone says is impossible, he is now necessary to let everyone know that this is not impossible.
Alas, he was saying too early, he received notice of the home school to go to work, let him go back to work. And she did not want to go back, her biggest dream is in the city will have its own house, he should go home on behalf of her to give up her dreams, but he still went back, she can not remember how to say it to him , we break up!
In 2004, her grandmother died, the family again a reminder, told her to get married this year, or have to wait three years later. August, she resigned to go home, and then went to Xiamen, where students scattered outing, went home a blind date.
January 2005, she was married. I wrote a letter to her, saying that she found a generous shoulders, at least she can rely on when tired …… did not expect that – on the same day, he also married, the bride is a just met Soon the girl than her fat, remember that he had always loved my fat ……
Overtaken by events, he was still her home at the secondary school teaching, I heard a daughter; while she and her husband bought a house in Fuzhou, the desire to achieve, gave birth to a son. But she had a very hard, my husband is not so considerate of their own imagination ……
This time, she did miss him, so she knew I was wrong, she just wanted to say to him: I am sorry! If not her, he might be able to get married with the university’s girlfriend, break up with him again and again, he told me he cried in bed many times, but she was cruel to abandon … she could not say this is Why …
Who can give her an answer to it?